Psychiatry

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School wise, it's been a week already since I started my internship in psychiatry and at first, I seriously thought it would be really bad, but it turned out really interesting! So far so good. However, there is a lot of homework related to it. Not to mention my other courses. And on top of that, I work on weekend. I'm a busy one... :( I feel drained... exhausted. I have a minimal social time... It's hard but I have to get through this! I HAVE TO! Positive thinking! COME ONNNN!

I can't wait for my march ''break'' not a whole week unfortunately... only monday and tuesday... Then... wednesday and thursday, my intership (which should be very illegal on the way) and day off on friday, Hurray.

Hopefully, I have few good friends I can relax with. We're planning to go play bowling or pool on that day. Thank god.

I'm still waiting a reply from the hospital for my externat this summer... It really worries me because all my friend got their letters except me. I called a week ago and they said they just sent it on february 18th and I like so close from the hospitall!! Come on.... I applied for Medecine, pediatry and surgery. I should start working on june 7th! Can't waiit! :D

I also have this job at my brother's clinic. My brother is a denturologist and he needed someone to type in all the patient's information into the computer. He gave me the keys so I can come whenever I want. Which I'm very pleased with it since I'm not avaible on weekdays and I don't really have any obligation. Very flexible and that's perfect. Besides, even though the clinic is far from my house, I don't really mind. I'm kind of tired to work close to my place. Why everything has to be close from me?! Get out of the comfort zone girl!

So for tomorrow... I have crisis situation class, english composition and microbiology lab. I have mondays... Because I always finish at 6 pm. Tuesday wednesday and thursday, I have my internship and friday I have Microbiology and sociology. Talking about sociology, last class... I usually don't skipp Sociology class but that day, I just couldn't handle it anymore. Honestly! I love my teacher's class but I was just wayyy to tired. I followed at the beggining of the class and took good notes and I left right after the 10 minutes break. And instead, I went to work hehe!

I really need a nice, beautiful and long break... Geebus!

Holidays!

2am here! Finally a break! I passed all my exams! Woohoo. It was so much stress, I can't even believe I made it! I'm startting school on January 25th. 2 more weeks! and My birthday is coming soon! :D Yess yess. I've been spending way too much these days, I am soo broke. But hey, have fun to the fullest!!.

Alrighty, bedtime! Happy holidays and have a happy new year 2010! :)

Passion or no passion or half way or to be.

Je réfléchis beaucoup ces temps-ci. Je réfléchis à ce que je fais présentement, ce que je ferais plus tard. Je réfléchis à la personne que je suis et aux personnes qui m'entourent.

J'ai rencontré un gars récemment. Un gars que j'aimerais côtoyer mais qu'il «n'est» pas (essayez de comprendre! ça doit être le Descartes en moi qui prend le dessus) C'est un gars vraiment super. Ce qui me fascine le plus en lui est sa volonté d'atteindre ses buts, ses rêves. Il m'en fait souvent part et j'apprécie beaucoup. Cependant, ça me ramène souvent à une réalité qui me rend souvent ... Je suis encore dans la brume. De connaître réellement qui te plaît, d'être décidé et d'être vrai envers soi est l'une des plus belles choses qui soit. J'essaie de me mettre à l'idée que peut importe l'âge, le temps qu'il faudra, je trouverai, moi aussi, la ou les choses qui me passionnent dans la vie. J'ai tendance à évité ce genre de sujet. Peut-être qu'il est temps que je passe plus de temps à y réfléchir sérieusement, car ce dont je me rend compte, c'est à quel point connaître la chose qui te passionne et connaître les moyens pour y parvenir jouent un rôle majeur sur le bonheur d'une personne.

J'essaie encore de distinguer les caractéristiques du rêve. Un rêve est définit comme suit selon le contexte: Représentation, plus ou moins idéale ou chimérique, de ce qu'on veut réaliser, de ce qu'on désire. Ce qui est certain, c'est que les responsabilités ont plutôt tendance à inhiber les rêves. J'ai souvent pensé que l'idéal est inatteignable quoique se rapprocher de l'ideal, c'est possible. Penser le contraire serait être pessimiste. Est-ce possible de faire toutes les choses qui nous passionnent dans la vie?

Beaucoup de choses me plaît, la question est de savoir si ces choses là me passionne. J'aime aider et je suis sincère. Je suis loin d'être irritable lorsqu'il m'arrive des mésaventures. De plus, je suis dans un domaine ou le personnel donne beaucoup et reçoit peu. Je suis d'accord, il est possible que ça puisse miner mon humeur, je le concède mais ce métier me rejoint beaucoup sur plusieurs aspects. Je ne me suis jamais dis non plus que je voudrais être infirmière depuis toute petite, jamais, mais je crois que je me plaît bien dans ce domaine et que ce plaisir, cet amour envers ce metier peut prendre de l'ampleur avec le temps. Je suis patiente. Donc, comme je l'ai mentionné, mes responsabilités jouent un rôle important. Mes responsabilités face aux personnes que j'aime. Serait-ce la raison que me retient d'être a un certain point libre? Enfin, je pourrais rentrer en bien plus grande profondeur à ce sujet mais pour l'instant, je coupe ça court! Sans mentionner que ce n'est surtout pas l'argent qui est à l'origine de mes questionnements.

Réalité ou rêves? Le mot «rêve» semble être un si grand mot. Pourtant, pour une personne, le rêve peut être simple mais si significatif.
Je laisse maintenant place à la réflexion et surtout, je me laisse du temps pour moi.

New dorwingz and nu...cashews :)

I just needed to take a break from my school assignments, get here and type whatevers ... on my mind, because it really, definitely needs to get out of this grey, gewy, unsensitive and sticky substance called brain. Well. I call it Janice but that's a whole other story.

I finally did my exams-of-the-death. As expected, the day was very tiring, I was litterally drained to the bones and for the first time, I had three coffees in a single day. Holy wowey.

I am now working on my internship assignments.

Hmm. Here's the video of the week :) Makes me feel so happy! :) It also makes me think of so many things as well.





The Piggy of my dream :O !! I find this one good although not as original... since I saw a potato chips commercial and they had a flying pig as their logo! Anyways. Still cool since I made it ;) Besides, who wouldn't resist a jubilant pig?



Ooh my! The wind! I love making leaves and swirls! I made this one night while doing my homework and I actually drew it on a portfolio. Lack of material ressources (A) ... And now that I am watching this again, makes me think of this carefreeness feeling I wish I had at times... *sigh* Move on hun! Haiii!! :D

Updates on my (not so personnal) life.

So this is my first entry of the beginning of school year. I haven't had much time to write before that... and even NOW I'm not even suppose to be here typing what I am typing now. But hey. it's cool.

So what happened during the last few months *flashback* ( '_____' insert sound effect).

During summer, I had my VERY FIRST JOB! YAY. It was great. Plus, I made my own money! I had to chance to work with great professionals and patients. I had to work during the day, the evening and the night. Even though daytime is quite a rush, for some reason, I really appreciated it.

Back to school has been quite a rumble. It doesn't even surprise me anymore. Also, making my own money means... eh, paying my own scholar fees. Yep. But it's alright. As usually, Nursing scholar fees cost me an arm.

I'm in pediatry/perinatality. The course is sooo charged. They don't give us enough time to assimilate the theory! The most ridiculous exam we had was based on two subjects. The time allowed was thirty minutes! ... *breathe in* ... *breathe out* Anyways. Other than that, biology is harder than last semester, wayyy harder and I almost did not pass. ''Thank god I passed my biology exam!''

And it is far from being over people. Next week, I'll be having two huge exams and each one contains two never-ending subjects! Shoot me. And to finish me clean-cut, I have a math exam on medications and injections, hurray.

In two weeks, PRIMO : for my first intern, I'll have to teach security mesures to 4 year-old kids in a kinder-garden. I am really looking forward to it :) But I think one of them is hyperactive and his teacher calls him a time-bomb. Lol. How nice. Anyways! We'll have to deal with it.

SECUNDO: Pediatrical Intern at Maisonneuve hospital! So many things to prepare! It is kind of making me nervous! But as long as I'm well prepared, there is no need to stress. Right? *cricket noises*

Oh, and what to say about sociology and gym. Their at the bottom of my list. Ha. But at least, I know I'm doing alright! Hum... I still have to do 8 hours off-class in gym and humm other few hours of lab practice before intern.

Anyways, even though I feel kind of overwhelmed by exams and studies, this doesn't stop me of cooling down with my close friends and have a great time with my family occasionnaly.

I personnaly think studies are not an excuse but you just need to find a great balance between friends, family, yourself and school.

Be riiiiiight back.

It is 7:17 AM. I am having my breakfast, great hot coffee and a plain bagel. I am working at 8 AM. wooo! I have been pretty lazy these days updatin' my blog but be sure I will come back soon! :)

The Phoenix

I've been watching one of my favorite late night shows yesterday, Saturday Night Live but exceptionally, it wasn't that great. I don't know. The special guest was Seth Rogen (a Canadian. YES-SIR!). That guy's so cute I gotta admit, well he's not one of those muscled guys or uber hot actors but I don't know, I'm more into dorks, geeks or what you call *average guy*. Anyways, just to say he wasn't that great on SNL even though I loved him in Pinapple express, Zack and Miri Make a porno and 40 years old virgin.


Oh and yeah, he also did Master Mantis in Kung Fu Panda.

Of course, I couldn't resist watching the show until the end but while watching, I found myself happily surprised to see The Phoenix perform Live. Briefly, Phoenix is a band from France making English Indie music and their music is quite great. Refreshing. Original. Really. First time I heard about them was on Myspace, remembering being all excited about their music, listening to them loud in the house. And now performing on SNL. Can't wait to purschase their Album.



Another thing... Oh my god! Hugh Laurie from TV series House is Britain. Thought he was an american, oh well proves he's a good actor.